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Monday, November 28, 2005

it's a freakish boring day! maple's dwn for two days.. it's freakish irriating lor. it started off at 12am last night.. till tmr. and i cant find anything for me to do except doing blogs and to surf ard. but it can be real bored to do tt for a day. so i went abt eating, slacking and watching tv. of cos, msn too. =) tis year's holis is super boring.. i dun c wad's the reason man. in the past years, i seemed to have smt to get my hands on.. well well. i suppose i shld be buying some strings to make a nice frenship bands.. hahas. haven decided to do to who.. perhpas to cindy? hais. we seemed to be so far apart nwadays. wonder y. she seems to be avoiding me. but est said b'cos she tinks i'm angry wif her. grr.. well wells. to cindy, if i did anything tt makes u tink i'm angry, well, i'm not =) i did alot of tinking tis holis though. i wonder wad's wrong wif me. i shld write it dwn but instead i wont say the names ^.^ here goes. girl 1 hurt me alot. and i do hate her alot too. i cant understand y she did tt to me but wells. i've tried to forget abt it. now, we r talking la. but i cant bring myself to forget tt incident. and i cant get myself closer to her anymore. girl 2. she hurt me by doing smt which i myself dislike quite alot... now, we are talking (jus like gal 1) but i can realli talk freely.. and i seemed to forget all those things she did to me when we were tgt. y is all this happening? seems wierd for me. i'm nt realli biased lor.. but this looked lke. even if i wanted to forgive and forget, i dun tink i can do it. cos of those frens ard me. i know i shant be bothered wif how my frens r tinking.. but i suppose nw they weigh much more than girl 1 and 2. i supposed, i jus can be a normal frens wif them. i realli dun wan to lose those ard me ald cos i've ald lost the trust of girl 1 and 2 b4. and who knows wil they do the same to me as they did in the past. (jus like the saying "once bitten, twice shy") this entry arnt against who so ever. if u tink u r sorry and wan to apologise, u have my phone number. msg me. but if u dun tink u r wrong or i'm going against u, then forget it. u shall nva be the same person i've ever known. take it tt u have lost me when the quarrel has started.